&you've got a lure i cant deny,

pretty_allison @ 2006-08-06T01:28:00

2006-08-06T05:30:03Z

sometimes i wish there was a potion for happiness, because i would use the whole thing.

pretty_allison @ 2006-07-31T23:12:00

2006-08-01T03:13:46Z

i wish you could transfer happiness.

pretty_allison @ 2006-07-15T23:05:00

2006-07-16T03:05:13Z

soooo....summer is here and i really like it, ALOT!

the good = friends, family, miami (one week and counting.)

the bad = school will be here soon enough and i don't want to go, i am so unhappy there.

pretty_allison @ 2006-04-25T01:29:00

2006-04-25T05:31:20Z

why can't i be strong and just forget?
why can't you treat me with respect?

pretty_allison @ 2006-03-30T00:58:00

2006-03-30T06:08:15Z

I know you'll be a part of me for the rest of my life, but sometimes i wish you weren't
you eat at me, and make me question why?
those minutes i won't ever have back
i know i should be stronger, things could be so much worse
but the things i do for you don't matter, so why do I do them?
if only i had more control and was not defined by you
sadly, i will never see that day.

pretty_allison @ 2006-03-29T13:20:00

2006-03-29T18:21:27Z

spring = me missing home and me trying to loose weight
and me hopefully kicking ass in my classes, probablly won't happen.

pretty_allison @ 2006-03-23T13:36:00

2006-03-23T18:37:35Z

home this weekend!
very much needed, to clear my head and figure my shit out.
in a place, i don't know whether i should be comfortable in.

pretty_allison @ 2006-03-16T13:55:00

2006-03-16T18:56:09Z

is this the road i should be taking?

pretty_allison @ 2006-03-13T09:55:00

2006-03-13T14:58:23Z

time for an update eh?
well....i just had spring break and it was AMAZING, too bad i can't continue to see the ppl i met.
i guess that is what wishing is for.

school is stressful, i miss my friends from home.
so i say COME VISIT ME!!!

pretty_allison @ 2006-02-09T13:42:00

2006-02-09T18:44:39Z

Where is the love?

pretty_allison @ 2006-01-01T20:08:00

2006-01-02T01:10:35Z

holes in the heart.

pretty_allison @ 2005-11-16T09:09:00

2005-11-16T14:09:50Z

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANNA MY LOVE <3

pretty_allison @ 2005-11-04T20:55:00

2005-11-05T01:59:40Z

when i want to escape
to a place
where i know I'll be heard,
where I can cry and it
will be okay,
where I
can be myself
and that will be
okay too...
all i have to is
find you.

hallmark, u took the words right out my mouth.
it's depressing looking back on lj and realizing
how many bad days uve had.
u think it will only get better.
u never thought that things would be so hard.
all you know that is that u can only look forward,
but forward to what?

pretty_allison @ 2005-10-18T15:03:00

2005-10-18T19:06:03Z

just a little insight...
I went to a soup kitchen yesterday, & it just made me realize how thankful I really am.
I do get wrapped up in stupid things, but Im glad I went.

on a side note, i miss y-town.
& i feel like im looking for something,
not yet knowing what it is.
i just want to have something to show for myself.

pretty_allison @ 2005-10-14T12:53:00

2005-10-14T16:54:27Z

THE WORK DOESN'T END!!
SAVE ME, PPLLLLLLLLEEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSSSSSSSEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

pretty_allison @ 2005-10-12T12:16:00

2005-10-12T16:17:04Z

I think I officially hit my lowest point.
please just get better.

pretty_allison @ 2005-10-01T17:20:00

2005-10-01T21:25:21Z

you got the best of me.
im attached, and you
don't care one bit.
except to use.

pretty_allison @ 2005-09-18T10:08:00

2005-09-18T17:09:26Z

i'm done with trying to impress.
why can't i just laugh?

pretty_allison @ 2005-09-13T15:24:00

2005-09-13T19:29:15Z

i say not to do this, but i find myself doing it anyway
getting attached, i have to stop myself
u dont mean anything
if i can stop myself from feeling then
it would be better then feeling at all
cut me off, that is the only thing that seems
to me that i deserve.

pretty_allison @ 2005-09-11T18:54:00

2005-09-11T22:56:38Z

make the right decisions and be in control
two things i am unsure of

pretty_allison @ 2005-08-31T22:35:00

2005-09-01T02:37:52Z

i dont want to go back to unhappiness

pretty_allison @ 2005-08-22T13:00:00

2005-08-22T17:05:05Z

things are slipping away from me, and im losing control.
im afraid ill miss the goodbyes.
im afraid ill make the wrong decisions.
im afraid i wont be ready.
time is ticking away, and im just watching every second go bye with eyes closed.

toothless.

2005-08-12T14:16:19Z

just tell me that everything will be ok.
just tell me my fears are stupid.
just tell me i made the right decision.
just tell me ill be happy.

pretty_allison @ 2005-07-26T20:15:00

2005-07-27T00:18:48Z

i can't seem to make anyone happy.

pretty_allison @ 2005-07-20T20:02:00

2005-07-21T00:05:54Z

i admit i am scared shitless to go back to school
i dont wont to be upset like i was first semester.
i realize that b/c of this i am trying to milk summer for everything it is worth,
and i realize i put a damper on people b/c of it.
if i only knew what my future holds, and had something to look foward too.
i wish certain things i had control of, but i know this will
probablly get the best of me.